Day 33 – Giving in to my Impulses
Today's challenge in the Hello, Fears Challenge has prompted me to reflect on a trait that, while at times frustrating, is an intrinsic part of what makes me unique. This realization unfolded in a rather unexpected manner this morning, shedding light on a facet of my personality that influences my mood in the most remarkable ways.
Every Saturday, my thoughtful spouse allows me the luxury of sleeping in a little longer, a gesture I genuinely appreciate. However, today was different; I had a personal plan to seize the morning, eager to embark on an early walk before diving into my day's commitments. Despite this intention, I found myself irresistibly drawn to the allure of a few extra moments of rest, taking advantage of the precious time when my spouse brought our dogs downstairs.
Yet, fate had a different agenda this morning, as our middle dog, Willow Rose, affectionately known as the 'shrieking banshee,' unleashed a symphony of barks and howls downstairs. My hopes for a few more minutes of sleep were promptly dashed.
As I came downstairs, frustration tugged at my mood. I felt annoyed at the dog for disrupting my plans and irritated with myself for not sticking to my early-morning resolution. It's amazing how a mere sip of coffee worked wonders in lifting my spirits, but the brief moment of frustration left an impact. My spouse, sensing my mood, went on high alert, understanding that I needed some time to cool down.
This incident led me to acknowledge an interesting aspect of my temperament; it takes very little to trigger my happiness, just as it takes very little to momentarily plunge me into a despondent state. It's a dynamic that, while at times may challenge those around me, is an essential part of my uniqueness. This sensitivity, this quicksilver change from joy to a momentary cloud, is a part of who I am.
Embracing this aspect of myself and recognizing its impact on my interactions and responses, I'm reminded of the intricate layers that make us human. It's a reminder to cherish the small moments of happiness and, equally, to understand that brief downturns are fleeting, soon to be replaced by brighter moments.
As I journey through the Hello, Fears Challenge, this self-awareness fuels my growth. It's a step toward understanding myself, my reactions, and appreciating the beauty in our complex emotional landscapes. After all, it's our quirks that make us fascinating humans, weaving a tapestry of lived experiences that connect us all.
A boy and his dog. Don’t let it fool you, the quiet moment captured in this photograph is fleeting.
